I have to confess I have been on the fence about an
opportunity at my church.
The
single’s pastor at my Church wants to start a new group for singles who are
30-39. My church has a group for 20-29
and a singles group for 40-59. I used
to kind of razz the single’s pastor at my church for skipping a decade and
making us 30 year old singles feel “singled” out. Apparently there have been many people asking
him why our church does not provide a group for people who are single and
30-39.
I am very
involved in my church (and very visual) so naturally he asked me to join this
group several months ago. Originally I
was going to join; but as the months have passed I have found my desire to join
this group weakening. The more I think
about it, the less I want to go.
A fence is a boundary line. I am on the fence about attending this
singles group. I am finally finding
contentment in the grass on my side of the fence and I am unsure if I want to
mess that up.
Earlier this year I stated that I
wanted 2014 to be a boy-drama free year.
I have to admit that it is boy-drama free and it is FANTASTIC! There are no guys at my job. No guys in the ministries I participate in at
church. No guys at my bible study. ZERO.
Zilch. Nada. None. I am finding
incredible joy in this season because I don’t have any distractions. I am not wasting my time pulling rose
petals off of flowers asking: “Does he love me? Does he love me not?” I don’t have to worry why he didn’t
call. I don’t have to put up with
dating games or spend hours analyzing the conversations I have with
anyone. It is GLORIOUS!
I spend my time building
relationships with people from church and work.
I spend my time serving the LORD at work and at church. I spend my time getting into the word of GOD
and worshiping him. I spend my time
learning new hobbies.
Right now I am off of any guys
radar. Apparently there are 60 single
people who are single and between the ages of 30-39 currently attending my
church. I can say with full confidence
I don’t know a “single” one of them.
(Get the play on words..)
To be honest… I am ok with this.
I like the
fact I am kind of “flying under the radar”.
I don’t have any guys pursuing me because they don’t know I exist. I don’t have to wonder why some guy stared at
me for 6 months, began to pursue me, and then ignored me the minute I started
to like him. I am sitting on the fence
and trying to decide if I am ready to jump over and attend the singles group
and deal with stupid boy drama or if I should just stay where I am.
“Lord, you have
assigned me my portion and my cup. You
have made my lot secure. The boundary lines have fallen for me
in pleasant places: surely I have a delightful inheritance”.
~Psalm 16: 5-6
Do I want to ruin the beautiful
quiet that GOD has given my spirit by joining this single’s group? Do I want to be in a room full of anxious
people who are desperate to get married when I have so much peace about this
season? Do I want single, eligible guys
in my church to know I am here?
What does GOD think about all
this? Well, just because the singles
group is “permissible does not mean it’s beneficial”~ 1 Corinthians 6:12. I am allowed to attend this group, but it
probably won’t benefit me as much as my small group bible study does. I guess it all comes down to trust. I trust GOD. I trust that he will supply all my needs
according to the riches in Christ Jesus?
I trust GOD that if it is supposed to happen with someone, it will in
GOD’s timing. I trust that he will not
delay in answering my prayer.
I guess I am not on the fence anymore. I have decided to stay within the boundary
GOD has placed for me and tend my garden.
~Sunny :D
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